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So this is the girl who i have been goin out on dates with. She is for sure, a cool gal. Pretty fuckin hot too! I am still waiting on the Union to hook me up with a job. I am in big need of a job right now, i just spent my last $20 on gas. I still have to get to work and pay for gas, and even if i start tomorrow, i won't get my first paycheck for two weeks. Plus i am in debt about $1,000 with my dad and others. The AAA insurance monthly bill just came in the mail yesterday, and i need to come up with $268 for this months insurance by the 15th of July. Shitty. But this girl is still makin me happy, and all you need is love, right?
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So, i met a girl the other day at the collage. I was playing my drum, and she came up and started talking to me. We talked for like 45 min, then i had to leave. Today, i saw her again, and she asked where i lived. I said Snohomish (pop 20,000) and she said, "no shit, me too. We should go out on a date some time. mabie dinner and a movie, and then go back to my place". Of course i said yes, because she seems to be a very cool girl, and she is quite frankly FUCKIN HOT!! So, she gave me her number, kissed the air at me, and walked off. Well, i would say that this could not come at a better time than now. I was about to explode if i was not able to give someone some affection and good lovin. Plus she said dinner, a movie, and after that, "my place". Shit guys, you know what that's all about. i'm gonna get some fresh, sweet apple pie. I will not call her for a few days to get her a thinkin, then i will take her out to a free concert or something. always pack a rubber! Plus i am kindof obligated to sleep with a girl, i am doing some reserch for Malissa. fucking extatic!!
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test test. this is Aysha
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well, i have been talking to her off and on today she is saying that we should still be friends. To be quite frank, i do not need any more friends. I have enough thanks. I really want to be her friend, ya her boy-friend. And what the hell is a friend do me if she lives i california? ya if she was my girlfriend like we had planned, she would move up here with me and we would be to hippys livin in Olympia. GRRR fuckin GRRR. I could do what i always do and just wait till they break up, but if i always do that, i will be 85 before i finally get a girl that i can be with. So again i say...I QUIT
-Topher
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well,shit
so i meet this girl online last august, and we endup talking for hours and hours every night that i am home on break. She is a hippy, and we have a whole lot in common. Infact, me and her have more in common than any of my past girlfriends have. we hit it off like potatos and salt. The whole time i was talking to her we were waiting till i graduate so i could come down and see her face to face instead of talking to her on-line, or on the phone. We sent eachother letters, and e-mailed eachother while i was at the corps. I had some real hope with this one. She is really cute, fucking awsome personality, and she is a hippy. She lives in california, but has been wanting to move to Olympia for quite some time now. Just like me, she has just simply been fucked over in the game of love for a long time. and she liked me just as much as i liked her. A lot.
Well, when you are looking for love like a drivers licence, you tend to go with what you can get even if it is below par. So she meets this guy, and of course he hits on her becuase she is fucking hot. So her bieng the love neglected type, goes after him like pitbull goes after a T-bone steak. So they have now been dating for a few months and he treats her alright. Nothing special, he is just a guy that will give her the time of day. I on the other hand would shower her with affection. And she know this and wants this, it is just that she is for now, in cali with a boyfriend.
Shit on me. I am fucking sick of all this shit. I am about ready to retire all of my feelings for everything. Just put them in a little box, tie them to a rock and throw them in a river. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!! AM I FUCKING UGLY OR SOMETHING!?!? AM I TOO NICE?? AM I TOO MEAN?? WHAT THE FUCK!! I am tired of it. I quit. I fucking quit. I can stand a few months, or even a few years, but 4 and a half fucking years?!?! I am done with this love SHIT! Bla bla bla, it's better to have loved and been hurt than to not have loved at all. SHUT THE FUCK UP!! Ya what a great thing it is to love for 3 years, and then have that person fucking die. Spending the rest of your life looking for that love again only to find that this world only likes wife beaters and jobless pricks. please exuse me while i FUCKING PUKE!!!
I FUCKING QUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fuckin irate ready to fucking SHOOT MYSELF!
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[04 May 2004|12:42pm] |
went down to the union hall in seattle today. I have my interview on monday(because on jobcorps, i get the job no mater what as long as i pass the UA) and after that, the whole week, i will be working in there shop, showing them what i can do with a trowel. Then they will give me a list of employers and say "where would you like to go?" So i should actually start work on Monday the 17th. coolness.
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When you do what doers do,
You get what doers got...
You get DONE
It's what a team of doers do best.
You get it started. You get it going.
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So get DONE
The quicker you get Done, the sooner
You will enjoy Do-ness. It's active-being
For those who enjoy being DONE
Getting DONE right the first time.
Better that re-done-dance
So i just got DONE with job corps, graduated, complete, finished, over on Monday the 19th. I got a new car(1992 black Jetta with grey intirior) and i got my license, with insurance. This is the first time owning a clutch, so it is a little bit rough, but i am getting better at it. I Go down to the Union hall on monday the 3rd and start working the next day at $19.96 and hour. FUCKIN A!!! What the hell am i going to do with all of that money? I have supported myself off of $600 a month, and now, i am going to be having $3,600 a month. I am sure i cand find something though. I drove from Curlew, to Snohomish, back to Spokane to visit miss Melis, then to Curlew to visit Mike Turner, then back to snohomish. Was a good road trip, and i got a lot better with the clutch.
I had a fun time with Melissa but the main reason I went to visit her, was to try to make her life a little more pleasent for the next month or so, but things did not work out as planned. Our body chemistry does not mesh well, and apparently, she has never had good chemestry with a guy. I know this needs further explaining, but if you are interested(chuckie) drop me a line and i will fill you in. It was a very frustrating time for me. I was confused, and well, confused again.
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this will be short. Well, i graduate on april 19th, which gives me a day. After i get out, i will be moving to Olimpia. My parents are driving up in there car, and my new car. After that, i am heading over to Malissa's pad to spend the holiday with her. You may ask "what holiday is on april 20th"? Well april 20th is the day that Bob Marley died, and i am going to celibrate the joys of his life on 4-20-2004. Good stuffs. =)~
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[25 Feb 2004|01:29pm] |
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So i have been at job corps for a year on the 11th. It is very frustrating to know that there are two direrent girls who i could have been dating and having constant sex with if i did not go here. Now one of them got a girlfriend, the other moved to phenix. It is even more frustrating that there are three differnt girls here on center that i could be having wild, crazy, 8 hour marathon sex with if we just had the time, or the place. GRRR. Well, i should be out of here in a few months, so i can releave all of my frustration then. whoever that girl is, i hope she is ready for 2 strait days of non-stop passion filled, earth-rocking, heart-stoping, crazy
S-E-X. The last time i got any was april 20th over at Brandy's. that was only for 3 hours, but we got cut short because the sun was coming up. AHHH. Hmmmm. Admin-leave? hmmm. but where would i go for such a thing?
On a lighter note, my band is on the verge of getting signed with DOL to travel and promote jobcorps. We are starting a non-profit organization called "music with a message". That way we will be applicable for grants. only a two more months, just two. Need sex, cant go on, need sex. colapsing.
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Well, i am leaving for JCC in the morning I am exited to play with my trowel again, and anxious to get finished with my trade, and to see Maya. She did not call me this whole break, an i did not call her. I am not sure what this means, but i do know that there is a girl out there who likes me a lot more than Maya. I have known her for a little over a year and she wants to move in with me when i get out of job corps, and i like her a LOT, and she likes me even more. The only problem? She lives in southern Cali. Yup, Lanna and I are like two pees in a bod, like potato's and salt. ::nod:: But allas, the bitter sadistic glee for human suffering has decided to play yet another crewel trick on me and my tortured heart. But hey, at least i have a girl that cares about me, and wants to even live with me. I just hope my dreams can become a reality. I have always doubted her sencerity until she told me she had started to save up for the move.
Maya has the most fucking adorable face ever, and her hair is gourgoius, she lives in Olimpia(where i am moving to when i get out) and we have a lot in common, but i think she just does not dig me in that boyfriend kinda way. Well, i am going to have cupid shoot is love arrow over to southern Cali and hope that it stays with Lanna for the next few months. The last one i sent lasted for quite a while, so i have hope for this one too.
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[26 Dec 2003|02:57pm] |
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I am sick. My head hurts, my throught hurts, my nose is leaking brain fluid, i am all discombobulated. Sucks. My Aunt, Uncle, and two cousins had the flu for a week, and they are just now getting over it. This is no ordinary flew, they were absolutly miserable and i might have it now. They said if i wake up tomorrow and my eye balls hurt, just assume shoot myself in the head.
I am leaving tomorrow to head back home. I was going to go see Lord of the Rings today(FUCK YA!) but when we got to the theater, they were all sold out for the day.(FUCK!) But i guess i can see it when i get back.
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So today i am in Eugene Oregon, I love this city. I am chillin with my dads side of the family, and it is very odd. My and my sister are the oldest grand childeren out of 9, and i have not seen any of my cousins in years. I found out that one of my cousins is a punk rocker, and one likes to use that green sticky substance. They have matured quite a bit, and i can now talk to my aunts and uncles without them treating me like a child. By going to Job Corps, they see me in a whole new eye. I am having a blast having itelectual conversations one min, and horseplaying with my younger cousins. Lot's O fun.
I went to my fav head shop in Eugene, and found out that there is no more glass bieng sold here!!! There has been new laws and they cannot, CANNOT sell any of it. I stopped smoking tobacco about a month ago, and i kinda half assed stopped drinking. My christmas presents were LAME asside from some good boots, but i know there was a lot of thought proses involved. And chucky, don't worry about thinking about JJ like that. You were not conciously thinking about it, it was a dream. There has been a couple times i cought myself checking out my half cousin sense i have been down here. I have absolutly no desire to have sex with her, but i just find myself looking every once in a while. Is that gross? i think it just depends on how you think about it, and your intentions. If you had the opertunity to get a lay from JJ and you can see yourself taking it up and you are blood related, that might be a little bit gross, but Jerry Lee Lewis married his twice removed cousin. Married, Fucked, and made a couple kids. You should see these kids! Mmma mma mmmaaa mmmy nnnaammmmme is Eeeelrrron. Poor kids. What would you do if you found out that your parents were cousins and you had deformities? would you just say fuck it and screw your sister and make some even more messed up kids? In Egypt they always inbred their leaders, that's where those extremly long chins came from. frickin gross man!!
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I have been talking to this new girl at JCC sense she got there two weeks ago, and we have connected on some level, i just don't know where. That is one of my faults, i never know if a girl is trying to be a good friend, or if she is interested in me. This girl's name is Maya. I really like her a lot, and she lives in Olimpia(where i will be moving to after JCC). We can always strike a conversation, and she is fuckin cute. She does not smoke tobacco, but she does smoke pot. Loves to go to Bumpershoot, and Hempfest. We have a lot in common, but i have no clue what to do at this point. There is a posibiliy we could be a couple, but i have to play my cards right. The only problem is i don't even know what my cards are, so how can i play them right? For the past two years i have had about 5-7 girls that i could have dated if i knew what to. The relationships i have had in the past all went well once i got into them, but that is just the trick for me, getting into them.
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yup, so i am back home again. My friends have still gone nowhere with there lives, and i am still single. suprise, suprise. The fact that i am not getting laid, is not the big issue about bieng single. The issue is that i have no body to coudle with. NOBODY!! I am seriously so in need of a coudle buddy right now it is making me more depressed every day. I have not had a good girl to could with for about two years. TWO FUCKING YEARS. Ya sure, i have had a few one night stands here and there, but i really do not give a shit about those. I need fucking affection. Every couple months there will be a girl at JCC who i think likes me, and we flirt for a while, but then she finds a boyfriend who treats her like shit. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT SHIT!!! This gets my emotions rolling like no other. What the fuck is wrong with me? I have ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS treated women with the upmost respect, and never treat them bad. I am always nice, sweet, kindhearted, caring, considerite. All the things that "girls want in a guy" Ya fucking right. Most girls i know subconciously want to be treated like shit. That is the only logical answer i can come up with. If anybody else has a better explanation, i would LOVE to hear it.
I feel like a rat on a sinking ship bearly bieng able keep my depression at bay. It is very hard to make a move on a girl when you feel like shit about yourself. All i want to do is find a girl who i can treat like a queen, and shower with affection. You would logicly think that girls would be all about a guy like that. Well think again. I have not a single thing in this entire world that i can just hug and cry on. Not even a damn dog. Am i that bad of a person? Do i really scare girls away? answers? sugestions? feedback? Please let me know what i am doing wrong, so i can change it. I cannot handle this much regection for this long. I am going to snap. Fucking razors. Wallow in my own chaotic insicure desires.
-Topher
Peace, absense of love, lack of unity, Respect, Resposability
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Well, this is a good day even though the main course is meat. I feel good about myself today, and i am exited to jo back to JCC. To get back on SGA, to flirt with Melissa, to play my drum with Matt, I am anxious. Yesterday was the last day i am smoking pot before i go back, so i am clean from now until next break. Although i did not get everything acomplished that i wanted to get done like chill with Chrystal for example. But whatever, i am still happy. I went to go do that stone project on tuesday but it snowed, so i could not. So i see one of my very good friends from way back in early high school, and he is dating this tony guy and has been for the past year. Tony treats him like SHIT, and i feel real bad for him. Tony has made Tod(my friend) very depressed over the past year, and he just puts up with it. Tony yells at him every day "fuck off, go to hell you fucking prick". Shit like that, and it really pisses me off. Any relationship where one person does not treat the other one with respect really gets me upset. Mostly when those people are people are people i care about like Tod. But it is there choice to feel like shit though.
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